Sitting. Waiting. Wishing.

Wishing in Central Park

This has been a crazy week--we returned late on Monday night from taking Olivia to New York as a birthday/graduation present. Austin and I wanted to give her something special in honor of the two big milestones.  It was a great trip!  We watched Phantom of the Opera, ate pizza in Little Italy, had vegan ice cream in the East Village and walked through almost all of Central Park (including throwing a penny in the fountain and making a wish).  You name an area of New York and I can almost guarantee we walked through it.  While having breakfast at Sarabeth's in Central Park last Sunday, we told her that our hope is when she grows old, she will smile and remember the trip and the fun we had.  I can say with honest sincerity that if we ever have a daughter, having one like Olivia would be a blessing.  She is kind, loving, smart and beautiful.  While it will be hard to watch her drive away for college, Austin and I know God has big plans in store for her life. 

While in New York, Austin and I both were constantly noticing families, especially adoptive families or those with Asian children.  It's so hard sometimes to stay present, to not let my mind stray years ahead, become filled with visions of taking our son/daughter on trips, showing them different parts of the world.  So many times either Austin or myself would say "I can't wait to bring our little one here to show them _____."  When we landed in Nashville on Monday night, I even found myself tearing up as we walked toward the greeting area of the airport.  I could just see our families and friends waiting, see us carrying our child, see us rejoicing for answered prayers.  I know dreaming isn't a bad thing, however, I also know the importance of staying present.  A quote I keep taped to my computer at work says the following: 

Sometimes instead of considering what is next, I simply have to consider what is.  And He is--and He is always enough.

The good news is Jesus is always enough.  I can rest in the that truth even when my heart is heavy, even when my dreams seem out of reach, even when it seems like a situation isn't moving forward, He is always enough. 

Thankful today for....

• Worshiping alongside my husband
• Breakfast with friends family (love you Brian, Whitney & Grace)
• Scripture that reminds me nothing is impossible with God
• Rainy and overcast Sundays
• Homemade pizza on the grill
• Tight budget that is causing me to make wiser choices
• Memories of a friend who left this world too soon
• Text from Olivia telling me she loved me 

Love and hugs!